Its funny to think of things that get us excited these days and what were we looking forward to the post, seeing all the needles. Its especially strange for me to say as needles are not something that I enjoy at all, so to get a box of them isn't my usual idea of what i want for Christmas. But thats just what it feels like, Christmas time, and the full excitement levels that go with it. We knew we would be getting them soon, but when they came at 9 am in the morning, I couldn't possibly wait until after work at 5 to open the amazing gift and see what was inside. Its mean as Kristy wouldn't be able to see, but she finally let me take it all home at lunch as long as i sent pictures so she could feel like she was there with me opening it all up.
Now at this point, we already had our training, so I had some idea of what to expect, but I admit it was still totally like looking at your stocking Christmas morning. Your excited, even if you know that its all going to be good, or if you know you will get candy or gift cards. And your still curious to see, how much did i get, what do they look like, where will i put them all. Its the same way with the drugs. Opening that box, and seeing cartons of clear liquid, packages of needles in all shapes and sizes, alcohol swabs galore and a cute red bio-hazard sharps container to round it all out. I tried to take pictures of it all, to really make Kristy feel a part of the whole opening up process. Some of the drugs had to be refrigerated so there was another cooler inside of the box that we had to open, and take out more boxes of clear liquid viles.
I almost feel like a doctor, or at least a pharmacy as we have boxes and boxes of different shapes and sizes of drugs and needles. And the hard part is that now that we had them, we had to wait 2 days to get started. Its okay though, as each step now is real progress. No longer do we feel like, a little progress forward, just to slide right back. I finally feel like I can turn over my shoulder and say, wow, look at how far we have come. I see where we started, and were gliding away, faster and faster. That made the next two days easier, to know, we are moving, we have begun this journey and its now our time.
Now with the two days passing, the reality sets in that those same needles that caused the excitement, you have to stick into yourself. Almost cruel, to make us give ourselves the shots, but its also one of the kindest things we have been asked to endure. How can we complain about a pin prick or two when we are getting this gift, the opportunity to do what was impossible 40 years ago. So as we preped for our first shot, we wanted to document it, to get it all down for us to remember forever. Taking pictures of it can only show so much, but its not as bad, or at least Kristy says, as expected. And the look in her eyes as she finished that first shot I would happily pay any price for. It was the look knowing, we're doing it, our future is becoming a reality.
Day two wasn't bad either, as if you can do day one, how hard is day two? One thing we did learn was that keeping the needles in the fridge has a nice effect of numbing the entry point a bit. Its also going to be something that gets more and more challenging as one shot becomes three shots a day, because your supposed to never give a shot in the same place. Luckily that is a few days away, and itself only lasts a week or so. I guess if we can get through the last two years, a few weeks of shots is the easiest part of those two years.
So as we continue down this exciting process, keep us in your thoughts and prayers. We're finally moving and every day, we get closer and closer. We are ready for the ride that has been our lives to take off, we are ready for the future. We are ready for life.
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