Why yes, the 17th of may sounds like a great birthday

So we are finally here. It seemed like it would never happen after two years of trying, a few failed iui, and the long shot of ivf. Then after being pregnant and being told as early as april 14th, the delivery date seemed to always be "next week". Althought we knew it would happen at some point, i think everyone in our lives, including us, wondered, is this boy every going to come out and meet the world?

We can all stop wondering, as today, May 17th, we will be getting a C-Section and get to meet our little baby boy.

This morning we started the day like any other, with getting ready for work, getting dressed all nicely, well at least me, as john can wear whatever. And we have a super minor non-stress test that was more of a precaution then anything else. Last week the Dr thought they might have seen something, which caused a number of tests and found in the end that there was nothing to worry about. That however including scheduling a few non-stress tests that the dr said might as well go though with even though we look good on all the other tests.

The stress test seemed fine, expect for the boy moving around so much that the nurses couldnt consistantly get his hearbeat. For those that dont know what a non stress test is, its when they hook up a number of monitors to your pregnant belly to monitor the babys heartbeat and kicks. Our boy will defaintly be a soccer player, as he kicks like the dickens, but everything was looking fine for the test, except that it was hard to get he heartbeat at times.

I guess the boy is ready to come out as well, as he knew what he needed to do (avoid the heartbeat monitor) to get the doctor to say "well, your far enough along, that i think it would be a good idea to have this boy, to be on the safe side." Those words were to my ears like a smooth sweet chocolate to my lips.

Finally, we have a plan, a date, and a knowledge that by tomorrow, we will be parents of a baby boy. We will update again we are sure, but right now its just a waiting game as there are 2 c-sections still in front of us, and at one time there was 4 ahead of us. So i guess the 17th of May is a good day to welcome a boy into this world.

Happy mothers day to all!

Although the boy has not joined us yet, He did make sure that I had a great Mothers day.

Here is the letter i woke up to today

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Dear Mommie,
I know that you wish I was able to play with you, and I’m trying, but I think with each movement I try, it hurts you. I don’t mean to hurt you mommie, I just want you to know that I’m here, and I love you so much. I dream of you so often, and can’t wait to meet you. I have been working hard to become strong so I will able to meet you soon. I know your smell, I know your warmth, I know your touch. It’s you who I want to meet, and It’s you who I will always go to for comfort.

Although I’m not out of your womb yet, please know that you deserve this day as much as any other mother. You have already taken care of me, kept me warm, kept me safe, and done all of it with putting my safety above your own. You were my mother from the start of time, and I was your baby from the second you met daddy. I know a little about fate, as there isn’t much to do in here but think and sleep. And I am your fate, just as you are mine, we have waited forever to meet, but we will be together forever from now on.

Daddy tells me that you hoped I would be in your arms by now, so I’m sorry. No tv for me for at least a week after I’m born I promise. And no computer time either. I’ll try to listen better as I get older, but daddy told me boys will be boys, so I might not succeed. I wrote you something, to show you how much I love you.

I know you are excited,
You want me to come out and play,
But for some reason,
In your womb I stay.

It’s because your womb is perfect,
It’s super warm, and safe,
Although it’s getting a little tight,
And I think I’m starting to chaff.

I’m the miracle,
At least that’s what you say,
But for me it’s you,
I want to show you today.

It’s you who struggled,
And it’s you who gave me life,
It’s you who got poked and prodded,
And it’s you who went under the knife.

I will never question if I was wanted,
I will never ask if you care,
You have shown me already,
Everything has always been there.

I love you more than tongue can tell,
I love you more than heart can hold,
I love you more than I can say,
So have an Amazing Mother’s Day!

Love

Your Little Monkey