The Ball is Rolling

So things are starting to really happen. We decided about a week ago that we really are ready to have our dreams become reality and to move forward with the IVF process so that it can all happen. Once we made this very important and final decision we called the Dr and were told what steps we needed to take.

Step 1. watch a stupid video online that shows us how IVF works. We even got to watch the little swimmers being suctioned into a tube and put into an egg.

Step 2. Go get stupid blood tests done to ensure we don't have any STD's. I would think that if i had any STD's i would have known that by now.

Step 3. Pick up birth control prescription (I know not the prescription you would think to take when trying for a child)and a standard antibiotic for John and I to take.

step 4. Make and go to appointment to learn about the shots (this is happening next week! yay and boo all at the same time)

Then at that appointment we also learn what other drugs we have to take and everything else that we need to know. Its a 2 cycle process so hopefully in 2 months are goal will be met.

I'm so excited but yet at the same time its so scary, its so much money and if it doesn't work we don't have a back up plan. We will be out of funds so there is no chance at this time for another cycle of IVF or adoption. I'm just praying that this is where we are meant to be and this is what will make our dream of having a family into reality.

I just can't believe that finally after 2 years we are really here going this route. I never would have thought this was needed. 2 years ago we were on our 1st anniversary trip to Disney and i remember standing outside the castle talking about how we were going to start trying in a couple of months and we were talking about how fun this whole process would be, well we were wrong this process has been an emotional roller coaster and was only fun for the first few months. Then our lives turned into timing my cycles and then it turned into buying a ovulation monitor and peeing on sticks every day. Then it turned into trying to find a dr then finding 2 more after that. Then it was hurry up and wait, and wait for test results, and then wait for more tests. Now it is here and hopefully the disappointment that we experienced every month is behind up and we only get the anticipation of meeting our little one.

Lord give me the strength to finish this journey and give me the dream i have longed for.